Lol....now, I am faced with more decisions to make and for the life of me I can slowly fathom embracing the road ahead and there seems to be fear present within me. When on Earth have I ever been known to be afraid of anything? Lol, I mean seriously....I found out a while back that eventually, I will be able to cross register in schools, which gives me some opportunities to take 1-4 courses in HBS. I think that is pretty cool....and, I, just for interest sake me do one in HLS & HKS just to network and do something outside of the box.
I am entering a phase in my life, in my mind was supposed to have started 2 years ago, and I would be graduating in May of this year. Well, If I know anything, I know life always throws curve balls...and its in the strategy of how you plan to catch, if you plan to catch it, and or strike out....I keep looking around at the home I have built with us over this last year, my son has such a solid foundation where we are. And, t was my intent to be finish with school by the time he started Kindergarten.....there is that curve Ball again....lol....I am going back and forth about how to approach the on campus courses....I am wondering, honestly, how much will I miss if I just study at Harvard in the summer time & JTerm? There is a part of me that feels the burning desire to be in a classroom because of the limits I have noticed in being a distance student...i'm ol school in a sense, sometimes I need to interrupt and ask the professor to clarify so that I know that I am getting what I need. Its a little different on this side of the spectrum. And, also, say I go home based, I can be in class during certain times of the day, out in time for school pick up and keep it moving.
Its hard work balancing single parenthood, working for an amazing company, I have extra curricula's & he does too....literally, I feel pressure. I'll call it what it is. Even with having a support system, its still alot....like my Professor said this evening....."every decision you make involves an opportunity cost."
I have to talk this out of my head...because it has been floating around in my head for about 3 weeks. And, last week after I talked about it to a friend....I felt a little better, just not relieved yet because decisions are not made yet. And, to be honest, I wont finalize any until I finish this course and some other things fall into place. Man, you talk about someone being on their knees...Jesus! Lol, its not like I don't pray or anything...just going through times like these when you start to feel like you carry everything by yourself, you need a belief in a higher power to reassure you that everything will work out just fine and to just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
You know I remember writing about what road to take 2 years ago....the where do we go from here post....and I am remembering asking questions of how all these things would play out as far as us living in Boston for me to finish school? would we stay? would we move to New York when i'm done? Or, would I take a job overseas? I have the opportunity to go overseas now....just dont think the timing is right. Or, would I scratch all that and just go to school in the J & Summer Terms and keep it simple?
Literally, these are all the questions I have going around in my head. And, honestly, I just need to focus on one thing at a time. Right now, that is passing my course. And, figuring out how our Summer is going to transpire from there.
So, thats where its at...now, I have to get back to my problem set that is due on Wednesday. The good news is, that I at least have a concept of how to work these problems.